Thursday, July 8, 2010

Epiphany.

Recently I was reading through things I had typed up on my computer. Things about people. And things about myself.

One thing made me realise just how lucky I am to have them in my life, even though the context is different since the time I wrote it. But I think they've made a huge difference in my life, namely making me see myself properly and know more about myself. Soo thank you to you!! (:

One thing reminded me of what I heard someone had said about me, and this "someone" has only gotten closer to me since. I think that having known what they thought helped me realise stuff about myself, and though it's made me keep in check what I say, I think it's also allowed me to mature.

Another (few) thing(s) I read made me realise how much things have changed. How I felt about someone, and how that's changed. I used to have this person on a pedestal, which was probably the biggest problem. To me, this person could not have been a better person. Now I realise, that having placed them so high, after everything that's happened recently, it just hurt to see someone who I looked up to and idoled so much become someone I never thought they'd be, and having seen this decline and having realised that all was not how I thought it was, I feel I've grown, matured and now, I know who they are and how they affected me.

This person, I stuck up for so many times, against so many people. No matter how much this person hurt me, or held me back, I stood up for them, for every action they made. Even if I was standing up to myself. And as much as things have changed, I will probably still stick up for them if need be.
And they're not the only one. Just the one I had to do it for the most.


So, after that revelation, and after having gotten it off my chest, I feel much better.
Much happier.

The logical mind can never be happy with conjecture. It needs evidence for everything, a reason for everything, and everything must be explained.
A mind of faith will take people for their word, will believe anything.

What if it's a mind that is both logical and faithful?

1 comment:

  1. then faith need not be backed by evidence, but! if evidence is provided contrary to the belief or faith, then everything will come crumbling down, with the need for a new faith or belief.
    its hard, but you have to believe what you hear, until proven otherwise.
    THAT is what a logically faithful mind does. what it IS.

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