DNR - Do Not Read

I think you make things hurt.
And I really don't want you to read.

You make me hurt.
You make having mutual friends hurt.
You make having mutual interests hurt.

Your name hurts.
Every word hurts.
Every memory hurts.

It just.
Hurts.

And as far as I know, you don't wanna change anything about that.

So I'm doing what you want.



You were still the only one I wanted to talk to last night.
It felt like everything I knew was about to fall apart.
But I couldn't talk to you because you hate me.
That's what it feels like.
Because to me, what you said was basically "Fuck off."

I don't want you to read this.
And I'm sorry that I couldn't actually say this to you.
I'm sorry about everything.
I'm sorry.


DNR.

I'm wishing for you to say you forgive me.

...

I am sooo confused.
I have two choices I need to choose from. And I think I need to make it myself.
Problem is, they’re opposites.
And I think that both would be what’s best for me atm.



I need help.
But nobody can help me I don't think.

(:

I think I have much too high expectations of people.
Like expecting them to care.




Or maybe I'm just selfish.




Whatever. Over it.

(:

I don't need you anymore.


Ha. (:

To one incredibly incredibly special person...

Haha (:

(:

Disregard anything I've said about you in my latest posts. So I missed my chance. I'll get over it. I am just sooo amazingly happy that I've ended up with a friend as fantastic and amazing as you (: loveeee haha
(Edit: I just realised there's only one I ever wrote anything slightly criticising of you :S but as much as I shouldn't admit it, I've sworn about you a few times :S)

So glad we spoke again, for the first time in ages *glares at net* :P and you're worthy of love, so don't ever try to convince me you're not. Ever. Again. (: loveeee

And YOU are so amazingly awesome. My bestest friend. ilyyy (: loveee

Being around you makes me feel good (:

Listening to: The Breathe Playlist - for educational purposes >.> (ie. to get some education done (:

Feeling: Tired, stressed, wanting to dance (: