The more you talk, the less I hear....

I just wanna know what you fricken want from me! What do you want me to change so that you're happier with this?
Is that really such a hard question to answer?

I stopped trying with you because I had tried so hard before that I moved away from the rest of the group. I couldn't try any more than I do already! But every single time we finished with me needing to change, and you just stayed the same and everything happened all over again.

I don't want to have to deal with this stupid fighting!

And you can't say that you tell me everything else, because I am still yet to find out what the hell happened the last time we fought. I don't know anything about you anymore!

But I get it. Really I do. I got told why people don't talk to me about relationships. It's cos I'm single, so I don't know anything. So seeing as all you want to talk about is him and your relationship with him, you don't talk to me. Fine. Whatever. I'll just leave. Btw, it's not like I haven't been in a relationsip before. And it's not like I know nothing.

So screw you.
Because of you I can't talk to anyone anymore because they're either too obsessed with their own problems or they're on your side.

And you can say you care as much as you want, but actions speak louder than words.

Feeling: frustrated, sad, angry, lost, empty, hurt

Messages...

Stolen Idea, I know (:

1. You shit me sometimes and I wish you'd just stay away when you do. But you don't. Your problem is that you don't think about what I might want, just what you do. I am not like you and so I don't want the same things. You make all of these assumptions and they're never true. Maybe you should base what you say on fact than on what you're like in a similar situation.

2. Ok, so as much as I may love it when you say that, I hate it when you say that because it just hurts to remember you lying when saying those same words, just with a different meaning to how you do now. Or at least how I took them. Something I wish I never knew, something I wish I never felt, and something I wish never happened. All in three words.

3. I don't know how to tell you this, but you do piss me off constantly. A lot. Really. Please stop ruining our friendship by sticking around us and pissing us off more. Ta.

4, 5 and 6. You three make school FUN! Maybe it's just cos I would prefer to hang around guys, especially 6 because we aren't as close and I don't feel as though it's so wrong to flirt with you a bit.

7. You have no idea how glad I am that you've suddenly decided to spend your recess' and lunches in the library, because somehow that's made things so much easier for us!

8. I wish we were as close as we used to be. You're still a good friend of mine. ILY!!

9. You're a great person. I just wish you'd realise that.

Ok, so yes, I realise that very few of the people here will read this, but eh. And I'm not saying who's who, and don't ever assume that what you think is right. (:

Taa. Little vent (:

Listening to:
Beyonce, P!nk, Anberlin, Ke$ha etc (: The playlist labeled "Breathe"

Feeling: unusual...

...

wow.
If the definition of insane is to repeat the same actions over and over and expect a different result, then I am shocked by how many of us are insane.

We never seem to learn from the past, no matter how we try.

Listening to: Far Away - Nickelback